How do I find spirit?

I put this here because the christians denounce it but it is as many
in here experience life and spirit.

There was a point where I had followed the spirit but the spirit
showed me this point about faith in the miracles of what was really
the word of God which the spirit said was in my mouth and in my heart
as it is written. And unless the spirit quickened the scripture then
part may be chaff except the spirit reveal this. For Jesus had warned
that such a thing would happen. But the churches demanded to the point
that I would loose my home and family and all I owned if I were to
follow the spirit rather than stay with this fearful bunch that
demanded I believe the word of God was as the church had taught. And
the church had gotten this interpretation from the murderous catholic
history through luther but had never reconciled this truth further. So
the Protestant also was part of this small but significant error that
keeps people in bondage to their interpretation of God's word. Without
these wonderful, and yet lonely experiences in spirit I would never
have been shown this and would be slaved to the interpretation as
well. But it was by holding an "empty cup, heart" out and waiting
until the spirit that I knew was "him, her, God" for none other had
control over the moment as this spirit, and none had the love to
understand such a one as I though I was lost in interpretation and
without the spirit I could never find it. The difference is that the
scripture through the spirit made me see that it was impossible to
interpret and I would have to be fed like a baby the most simple of
truths such as recognising the spirit in the moment. And developing a
lifetime relationship with spirit no matter how much the "right
people" threatened me with their truth.

Knowing scripture they know this to be true about spirit but never
having experienced it they fear it and they fear the truth that Jesus
said if they were to follow the spirit. For they see how the
interpretation treats those that do not follow it. But in order to
reveal the chaff such a fire as what they experience from the "right
people, interpretation" when reconciling with spirit is necessary to
reveal the truth.

So you see it is not one meeting with spirit that is what forms you
but a lifetime of growing in spirit, not in interpretation such as is
offered by the denominations. It would be better to be alone with
spirit than in this brood when a fledgeling in spirit. And alone one
would be after the REJECTION and the CRITACISM. So many turn back to
safety at this point so that their appears to be none that follow
spirit. But those that have never eaten of the tree of the KNOWLEDGE
of good and evil and never read the book seem closer in spirit and
likewise are rejected and slandered by the interpretors as heathen.

Let go of the veil of interpretation and place on your altar only that
which you know was given you by spirit. Without this veil of teaching
you were handed as a child you will be better able like a child to see
spirit. Reject anything that does not come from spirit, and once you
know spirit you will not hear the preacher or Steven or your mother.
For there is only you my love, my life.